My So-Called Life

[voiceover] So, I started hanging out with Rayanne Graff, just for fun. Just 'cause it seemed like if I didn't, I would die, or something. ...Things were getting to me. Just how people are -- how they always expect you to be a certain way. Even your best friend. ...Like, with boys, like they have it so easy. Like you have to pretend you don't notice them noticing you. ...Like cheerleaders. Can't people just cheer on their own? Like to themselves? ...School is a battlefield for your heart. So when Rayanne Graff told me my hair was holding me back, I had to listen. 'Cause she wasn't just talking about my hair. She was talking about my life.

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[voiceover] My dad and I used to be pretty tight. The sad truth is, my breasts have come between us.

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Rayanne: You want to have sex with him. Angela: Who? Rayanne: Who? Jordan! Catalano? Come on, I'm not going to tell anyone, just admit it. Angela: I just like how he's always leaning. Against stuff. He leans great. Either sex or a conversation -- ideally both.

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[voiceover] My parents keep asking how school was. It's like saying, "How was that drive-by shooting?" You don't care how it was, you're lucky to get out alive.

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Rickie: If you were about to do it, okay, what would you want the other person to say, like, right before? Rayanne: This won't take long. Rickie: No, seriously. Rayanne: Do I know you? Rickie: No, like, for real. Like, romantic. Angela: You're so beautiful, it hurts to look at you. Rayanne: It hurts to look at you? Rickie: How'd you think of that? Rayanne: Where would it hurt? Rickie: I really like that.

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[voiceover] I've been kissed 3 times. No, 4 times. No, 3 times. All of them were people I never saw again. Which I hope doesn't like, mean something.

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